She acts like she's normal in public, But nobody know that she's an alcoholic. She drinks away the pain, To keep from going insane. No one knows what she's going through, But she also doesn't want them to. What would happen if they knew? If they knew, what would they do? She doesn't know what goes on in her own mind, She's too scared to know, and of what she'd find. She isolates herself at home, All she wants is to be alone. She doesn't want her sadness to show, Even though she forgot how to smile a long time ago. "Would the world be better off without me? Yeah, I'm better off dead, anyone would agree." Nobody knows what she's thinking. They don't know that she's been drinking. They don't know that she wants to die, Or that she only ever wants to cry. It wouldn't be the first time If she attempted suicide. Although maybe she won't actually do it. Even though it's a quick slit of the wrists. But if she did would anybody care? If not it's probably fair. She never cared about anyone else, She only ever cared about herself. "Nobody would notice if I was gone. They would just keep living on." She goes in the kitchen and grabs a knife. She thinks nothing matters less than her life. She locates a vain, And anticipates the pain. But then, the doorbell rings. "Ding dong ding dong ding" Then she hears a voice, And now she has a choice. Answer the door and let them in Or ignore it and don't care who it is. She gives into her curiosity, And hides her animosity. "I noticed you weren't at work today, I came to see if you were okay. I made some soup, as well as stew. I didn't know what'd be better for you." It was the guy from down the isle, From her at work, his name was Kyle. She burst out in tears, She couldn't believe he was here. "Why are you crying? Are you dying? Are you alright? You're looking really white. Why do you have a knife? Were you going to commit suicide?" She hung her head in shame, There was nobody at all to blame. "Please don't kill yourself. I couldn't live with myself, Knowing that I let you go, Especially when I love you so." She dropped to her knees, Starting to feel the unease. He picked her up with surprising ease, Then just simply gave her a squeeze. "I didn't know anyone cared about me, But now it's very clear to see. I just wanted the pain to go away, I thought death was the only way. But now I know that it is better if I stay, Especially since I have you to keep my monsters at bay."